Morgan knew she was right and didn’t argue. “Better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.” She said.
What do you think? Is it? What about the one that got away? Where is he/she now? Do you ever think about them? Do you even have one? Or are you one of the lucky ones that married your true love right out of high school and have been with them ever since. One of the fortunate ones that married twenty-five years ago and are still happily married, is that you?
Or are you like me. I had one that got away. It wasn’t a great love affair like Romeo and Juliet, or Edward and Bella or even Rob and Morgan. I was in the army at Fort Sam Houston, Texas taking my AIT (Advanced Individual Training) to become a Combat Medic and I met him. He was young and handsome, very handsome. I met him at the NCO club and we danced and laughed and had fun. Nothing major happened. Nothing minor happened. But it was nice, for lack of a better word. I can’t even remember where he was from, somewhere in New England I think. His name was Todd and he was a highway patrolman. (Ok, yeah, the whole man-in-uniform thing really melts my butter.) He was sweet and we were young and far away from home and we hit it off. I do remember he was a very good kisser. (Side note here; don’t you miss making out?)
When the training got more intense, we lost touch with each other and I ended up leaving Texas without his address or phone number. To this day, I’ve wondered about Todd. Hopefully he lived happily every after.
There are a few old beaus that I will gladly admit I wished I had never met. (And don’t even get me started on the one’s I regret sleeping with!) There is even one that I wished I’d never married. But that too gave me many experiences not to mention two children that I love more than life itself. I guess we take the ex-boyfriends, the ex-husbands and the ever-loving ones that got away and we live our lives with the fond memories and good experiences that have made us the person that we are today.
One thing I haven’t mentioned is the fact that sometimes they come back into our lives. Who knows why? Is it Kismet, is it just one of those things or is it just meant to be? I don’t know if I believe that there is only one soul mate for each of us or not. What do you think, Dear Reader? I’m curious to know your opinion. When we were made in Heaven, did the Lord put on earth another soul for us and was it God’s intention that we meet them and spend the rest of our lives with them? If that is true, then what about the serial killers and wife abusers in the world, do they have a soul mate? Had to think about it, didn’t you?
In PESCADERO CREEK, Morgan doesn’t realize she’s actually lonely until she meets Rob. Her life is consumed with work and running. Whatever is left is spent with her friends. But when he comes along her life changes. Suddenly she realizes her life was empty and she was alone. It’s that fear of being alone that actually contributes to her becoming alone again.
Tears filled Morgan’s eyes and rolled down her cheeks uncontrollably. She drove through the gate and parked in front of the house. She sat there awhile trying to figure out what had just happened. Did he just tell her that he thought they shouldn’t see each other anymore? Morgan was confused and couldn’t remember what she had said to him. Whatever it had been, she hadn’t meant it. She couldn’t imagine not seeing him anymore. Dr. Staci must have been right. She should get out of this relationship now if it was true. When she finally got out of her SUV, it suddenly seemed very windy and cold. She walked into the empty house alone heading straight upstairs to her room. It was Lilly’s night off and the house was quiet. She felt very alone in the empty hall and sat in the middle of the great staircase letting the tears come.
They fell down her face and onto her lap. Her shoulders shook with her sobs. She listened to her own breathing in the empty house. The same thing that had brought him here was now taking him away. She knew he was right. For their own safety they had to stay apart. She was the idiot that had fallen in love with him after all, Rob had never promised her anything nor had he ever talked about the future. She went upstairs and lay on her bed curling up into a little ball. Rob would leave just like everyone else in her life had.